Futility of the purge was largely written by a beta boi who often loves to grovel at my heel. Masquerading as an Alpha male at times, his true beta bitch nature doesn’t fit with his public persona. Ashamed, trying to be what society thinks he should be is a constant in his life. We’ve had a lot of really great conversations about kink, humiliation and the dreaded PURGE. If you are into a secret kink that contradicts your public persona then you are at a high risk of experiencing a purge. Let’s take a look at the purge , reasons for it and how to avoid a purge. Personally it saddens me,greatly. Let’s take a look at a first hand account of a beta bitch boi’s thoughts on purging. I’ll include my two cents as inspired.
This blog is for those of you who are too far gone to recover. Did that make you squirm? You know it’s true. Say it. Say, “I’m too far gone to recover”. Did it give you a little chubby?
You know who you are, and you know exactly what a Purge is. If you don’t know what a Purge is then maybe you’ll never be the hardcore type who will ever do it or maybe you’re too young yet to have experienced a Purge or realize what it was when you did it. But mark my words young man that you’re only going to get more twisted with every passing year and you will save yourself both grief and unnecessary expense if you pay attention to this blog.
Whatever the case, young or old, the Purge is a futile attempt at denying who you really are; because you are a submissive bitch. You are a beta. Or maybe you’re a sissy. But most likely, you’re all three of those and more.
Bitch boi has a point. The more off of the “mainstream track” you are with your kink. The more your kink is opposed to your public persona, the more likely you are to purge. Feminization, cuckolding, and your general humiliation whores are at high risk of the purge. Also, you think getting rid of your fem items, your humiliating toys and clothing you’ve acquired will help you “stop” behaving in these ways. It won’t. It is who you are. IMO what’s wrong is your public persona, not your kinky private one.
Pretending to be a Man
You may pretend to be a man in certain aspects of your life, but that’s only a means to the end of being able to indulge in the submissive sexual deviant activities that truly define you as a person. So stop your little hissy fits when you panic and throw away your secret stash of sex toys or lingerie. It’s such a waste of money and you know that you always rebuild your stash. You will never escape your weak-willed submissive reality. (Ahem…TommyGirl, that includes you)
What powerful words, hum? Sexual Deviant Activities. What does that MEAN? It just means you are different. Not main stream, nothing wrong really. So wear that deviant badge with honor! It’s true you will forever be drawn to these kinds of sexual stimulation. If you suppress your true desires, why there’s no telling the long term negative affects on your psyche. Denying a part of you exists, denying desires which plague you? No reason to, really.
Finding a Safe Place for Your Kink
If you’re worried about somebody stumbling across your stash, then buy yourself a chest or a hard shell suitcase…anything that you can lock securely. If you’re worried what others may find in the event of your demise then you can leave instructions in your Will that those containers are to be taken to the dump unopened (put the keys where nobody will ever find them).The next time you are tempted to Purge, give yourself a week to think about it and I guarantee that you won’t do it. But you will save yourself a lot of money. Then take the money you saved and put it towards something practical like your retirement savings, a new appliance, new clothing, etc.
Look, dealing with your kink and how it fits in your world is stressful, I get it. It’s one of the things I do here, talk you through those anxious times. I encourage everyone to learn to “put away” not “purge away”. Also to find some support to help you through stressful times. Emotions come and go, they feel more intense at times and that’s OK. I don’t advocate making any decision based on emotions, since they are so fickle and fleeting. In essence, just because you “feel some thing” It doesn’t mean “they are right”. Realizing that everyone has a secret self they don’t share with the public, riding through the roller coaster will go a long way.
But please stop the foolishness of Purging. It’s a waste of your hard-earned money. And, more to the point, you’re too much of a little bitch to ever change.Accept it, you little beta bitch. You don’t have the balls to Purge for good, so stop faking it.
It does sadden me when people are not able to explore, express and enjoy their kink / true nature. What’s all this “Be your authentic self” stuff when you really need it? Around here your sexuality is encouraged and accepted. The sweet sting of humiliation is understood, enjoyed and encouraged, as well as a plethora of other kinks. Involve yourself with those who understand and accept you for who and what you are.
You may not necessarily be able to be more OPEN about your kink in your “vanilla” world but you do have an outlet here. A place to enjoy (I know sounds like an oxymoron) your humiliation, cross dressing, cock sucking or other less than mainstream desires.
Bitch boi has a lot of great points, written from my perspective but is chock full of first hand advice. I want to hear from you, about purging. Leave a comment below, or email me and tell me your thoughts on purging.
Until we chat????
Kink Mistress Erika
Dear Mistress Erika,
In addition to being an incredible Mistress, you are a thoughtful and genuine person.
The more I get to know you, the more grateful I am that I know you.
I know your words are going to help a lot of people.
*crossing legs* *shoe dangling* *foot softly bouncing*
*flips off shoe*
Show my toes how, grateful……… slut
*Melts and lays down on the floor*
May I spend the day under your desk, kissing your feet and sucking on your toes?
*Looks briefly into Mistress Erika’s eyes for approval, then down at the floor like a good little bitch*
I’m sorry that I have a small penis, Mistress.
you are sorry, so am I
I friggin replied to the wrong comment *Laughs*
What a good bitch…….. *pushes toes into mouth*
Suck that toe which is BIGGER than your sissy clit……. you are sorry.
I haven’t purged, but you’re right, as always…It is a temptation at times. But as you said a sissy bitch like me can never go back to vanilla. My denied cuckold sissy self is the real me, not the pretend “male’ i have to be in the so called “real world”….But i am taking baby steps to make the kink world more and more how i live…..and of course purging would be a back step….so i plan to let my sissy self free more and more!
princess, what a fantastic reply and a great sissy celebration today! WOooooooo how, there was no male I saw to day, slut. Not one shred of male left……….#NoMercy
The idea of pretending to “be a man” resonates with me. It feels like work. You know it is not exactly how you feel. You feel like a weak small girl in some ways. If a woman sees this or senses this in you it gives her total power. It is like “she knows” or sees it or senses it. You do try to “hide” it in most of life and situations (which is most) where you have to. Some women can see through it I think.
Owen, thank you for stopping by and commenting! You are right, there are some Women who can see right through you. Well they can’t “Litterally” SuperWoman isn’t around
but the pick up on your energy, your essence. You think you can hide, but reality is: to some you can’t!
Goddess Erika, I don’t purge or need to purge. Though just maybe i can hide it from You. No i don’t think i can as i am big time beta.
Make a note: We need to discuss this reply in session.
i hope You didn’t get mad about my reply. i will remember to talk about this in our next session.
I’m not mad, anger doesn’t serve a purpose here. Something we need to connect about, though.
But I do like the image of you kneeling and trembling at the thought you displeased me. What a good tftt
I won’t purge I’ll put women’s clothes away for a bit if I can’t dress but when I’m not at work/playing tennis I’m dressed up. I’ve invested to much into buying women’s clothes for the last 20 years and it’s only grown stronger over the years. At first I thought it wasn’t real but it is!!! Honesty the fit/feel are so much better then guy clothes. I realize at my age most women are married with kids and I’m not/as well being put in friend zone by girls I know means I’m not boyfriend material anymore. I was reall mad about that over the years but now I’m not as it gives me all the time to dress as a girl at home and I really want to get more into this which I have as I’m in feminization circuit training program with you and the other mistresses as I want to keep doing this throughout this year. Let’s face mistress I really am a cream puff girl forever and it’s to difficult to resist/fight back say no to with all of you doing this to me along with my masseuse who talked me into buying blouses/purses/giving me 5 of her old bras along with always spraying perfume and lotions on my massages and cheeks smelling girlish all the time. I’d love to have her become more mistressy with me but I’m afraid what her reaction will be as she’s married an told me no more buying women’s clothes as I have enough. I’ve thought about telling her about calling you but afraid what her response/ reaction will be. I am in a female lead relationship with as she has taken control over my spending so I can do massages 3xweek and monthly waxings. Any ideas how I can have her become more of a mistress alomgbwith my masseuse/ therapist?
I hear you. You’ve really come a long way! Amazing over the short time I’ve known you!
We need to talk about your masseuse in private. But yes, I have some suggestions for you!
For many years I purged mostly due to shave and thinking it all was a stage that would eventually go away. But over the last decade or so since I accepted that it’s not a stage but rather who I am I only purge when clothes are worn out and need to be replaced. It’s a tough thing to accept but once you do purging isn’t even a thought that crosses your mind.
Yes MISTRESS ERIKA. I LOVE you mind .Yes Mistress thankyou you are amazing.You are a great writer.Doing daily assignment affirmations. I feel happy obeying the Mistress’s of the Enchantrix Empire. I beg for you to protect me .i do not feel guilt, shame for being a cocksucking sissy. One day at a time we will get where ee are going .peace and joy.