Pain Pleasure and Trust are three elements that should embody any pain session. I had a great talk with a naughty pain pet, who wishes to remain anonymous but is ok with sharing his experience and thoughts. He’s fascinating and chatty and I spent most of the day with him. Let’s call him PCW, for pain cock whore. PCW enjoys pain play in many forms, and always considered himself heterosexual, augmented from a very religious background. Therefore you can imagine the many years of challenges and guilt to process when he started down that slippery slope!

Therefore, as you might expect his kink journey has required him to spend quality time in retrospection on the validity or more poignantly fluidity of his self-image as a hetero-presenting person.

PCW Is also into pain for the brain: Humiliation! It enhances his physical pain experience. His desires have evolved, wanting, needing more humiliation. More as in more severe, including degradation. More as in exploring the upper limits of any pain toy. Meaning: A paddle can swat you lightly, firmly, or even more intensely. PCW is on the upper limit.

Pain And Pleasure

Pain Pleasure And Trust 18+

Pain play can take on many forms, and PCW here has experienced a lot. From various types of impact play like caning, flogging and even whipping. CBT, nipple torment. Erotic electrostimulation,  the list goes on. I haven’t had the pleasure of playing with everything on this experienced kinkster list but looking forward to it!

I’m giving you a bit of background to PCW, as the main thrust of this blog is to share our discussion and invite your input!

What Happens Swiming In Subspace

PCW doesn’t enjoy physical pain to the point of total exhaustion, as some enjoy. He explains- there’s a point in his surrender to pain where he feels safe, that he’s now a vessel to be used. Enjoying the feeling and surrender he cannot deny Mistress anything. Even if that’s to serve a cock for her. So as the play progresses, we turn down the physical pain and ramp up the humiliation. Certainly an explosive cocktail for him.

He’s compelled by his submissive surrender, to obey. Humiliation, by ordering him to suck a strap-on, with his hot red ass screaming hot. The spanks have ended but the parachute is still in play.  The Nipple clamps with swinging weights encouraged me to instruct him to bend at the waist and wiggle his shoulders. Wrapping his lips around my girl cock, as he does my bidding.

All the while telling him what a dirty deed he’s doing. What would people think of his behavior? Should he be encouraged to step out of the kinky closet? Maybe that’s what needs to happen. No? Then keep pleasing, my cock you dirty slut,  I’ll tell you when to stop, understood? The whimper that accompanies my words is such a turn-on!

As I remove the weights and other lovely painful accouterments, he continues his strap-on-sucking activities with my commentary.  Does sucking a dildo for Mistress constitute bi-sexuality, could he be GAY? Isn’t an erection a truth-teller? You haven’t lost yours, humm. slut!  Perhaps instead of sucking training, we need to move quickly to pegging? Oh, that got me a moan! OK, I’ll consider it.

Aftercare Wise & Words

When all is said and done, PCW needs and wants that aftercare. Some things have been intense and he needs that bridge. To move from: Thumbing his nose at his upbringing with such displays of debauchery to his work day-to-day world. It’s a very important time in any session. He needs to feel valued more then than ever, that his dirty deeds don’t make him a bad person, or a loser. We’ve had some great chats.

I enjoy his soft slow pillow talk after the fun, he’s not the kind of guy who is like: “Well it’s nap time, got a sandwich?”.

It’s during this time the trust was brought up

Pain Pleasure Trust

He said he’s had sessions with women in person and long distance where, in hindsight,  he didn’t fully trust them. He enjoyed the sessions and admitted being attracted to their edgy demeanor. It’s what he expected from sessions and had no complaints regarding style or application. But the element of full trust wasn’t there. It wasn’t until he had a session with someone realized upon contemplation, that she had his full trust,  The experience with her was way more intense, and the lasting effects reverberated for days in his mind and body. It’s then he realized what was previously missing. Not that there was anything wrong with his previous experiences.  His experience, as he tried to explain, was deeper. Knowing without a doubt you are completely cared for, and looked out for, he can then fully experience submitting and letting go.

He realized that some small part of his brain kept (for lack of a better term) alert for danger. But after playing with this one particular woman, and getting to know her in and out of any sessions, the trust grew and enhanced their sessions. Although PCW is thoughtful and articulate he had a hard time explaining the experience other than to say it seemed to be a total emersion he’s not experienced before. Can you help PCW out, have you experienced similar? How do you describe it?

Kinky Play And Trust

What other kinky interactions do you enjoy that trust only enhances? Would you play with someone with minimal trust? Be a part of the conversation by commenting below!

Until We Chat

Mistress Erika 18+

 

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